Today i want to give thanks to God for waking me up at 0550 am. I was in the midst of a dream. The dream was bad and i think is demonic. i dreamt of the one of the coffee shop stall tenant. He is wicked in the dream. I thank God that i was waken up when my mother was cooking at the kitchen. When i was awake i knew it was the Holy Spirit who woke me up. Otherwise i would have a very disturbed and sad day because of the dream.
Many a time, the dream i have will affect my whole day. So if i dreamt of God it will be a happy, warm feeling hanging around me and the same goes to bad dream days.
Before the service started, i quarrelled with My fiance over a issue happened two days ago about whether his mother overheard our conversation, because i was complaining about her being nagging and making me vomit blood. It sounds really bad to angry with such things but it is really irritateds at times. So during worship i could not concentrate and was distracted. The pastor as usual gave alter call but i did not go up. So i stayed at the back. I could not connect with God. Many others are being touched by God, laughing, crying and praying in the Spirit. I was alone and bitter still at heart. I told God i wished i can experience Him but i cannot let go of the hurts myself. I was thinking also, if i go would God really touch me with my angers not settled?
Soon He answered my question and assured me. At some point, i saw my pastor was walking to the wrong direction, by the way, he is blind, so i quickly went over to wanting to pull him out to clear his path. Instead of me leading him out, he initiated to pray for and i was wondering how to answer him. Before i could reject him, he lay his hand me and prayed for me.
This is his prayer: " Lord, i pray that you will use her in her work place and to bring many to Christ." When i heard it, teh chooi lan, one of the coffee shop worker came to my mind. This morning i was just thinking of her and sympathise with her for her divorce and her health problem. My heart was sad for her and i started to cry. This cry was from deep inside my heart, i know i could nv really love her so much to wail for her situation. It is the work of the Holy Spirit. I felt the double portion of Elisha anoiting of God fell on me and i fell to the ground hard. I had nv feel so real of God s power so strong to make me fall down so quickly in 1 second. Usually my leg feel wobbly and when the fire of God burnt in my belly, i would be on the floor. As it will be painful and there will be a pull on me to the ground. So i slowly lowered down to be on the ground by that pulling force.
I cried for a while and laughed also. This time it is only for a while but yet the power was there. God's power in Our metings together is getting stronger and stronger. Lord, let the revival come. Empower me with your Holy Spirit so that i could bring ppl to Christ at the coffee shop. This is my prayer.
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